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At this point in my life there are many unknowns. How long will it take to get pregnant this time? Will I have another miscarriage? Will I receive another fatal prenatal diagnosis? When will I be able to stop skipping church when there is a baptism planned? Will there ever come a time that I won’t cringe upon hearing the word abortion? I could go on, but I’m sure you get the point.
There are days, and sometimes weeks, when all of the unknowns of my life weigh heavily upon me. They consume me to the point where I feel like I’m going to break all over again. The one step forward and two steps back of this long journey of grief. |
It is during these times that I have to force myself to focus on what I know, rather than all of the unknown.
- I know that I serve a God who loves me more than I will ever be able to fathom and much more than I will ever deserve. It is that unstoppable, unconditional love that will give me the strength I need to get through anything. But from everlasting to everlasting the Lord’s love is with those who fear him. (Psalm 103:17)
- I know that God knows all of the answers to all of my questions. In His time all will be revealed. He’s already written the story of my life and everything will happen just as it should. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. (Psalm 139:16)
- I know that God will finish what He has started and hold true to His promises. He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. (Philippians I:6)
- I know that this forward and backward journey through grief won’t always be this hard. The day will come when everything isn’t so raw. The enormity of all of this loss won’t always be on the forefront of my mind and heart, seemingly guiding everything I think about and do. I will learn to walk alongside the grief, not behind it. There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens… (Ecclesiastes 3:1)
- I know that one day our family will be united for eternity in Heaven. Then the righteous will shine like the sun in the kingdom of their Father. (Matthew 13:43)
Life would be kind of boring if we knew everything that was going to happen. There will always be unknowns. The key is not to let the uncertainty take over and get the best of us. That leads to a life of fear, and that is no way to live.
The Lord is my light and my salvation— whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life— of whom shall I be afraid? (Psalm 27:1)
The Lord is my light and my salvation— whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life— of whom shall I be afraid? (Psalm 27:1)
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